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attractiveness.

i swear that i was conceiving of this entry before i saw yours, scorppoett.

All throughout my life, i've felt physically unattractive. just flat out ugly. i looked at other guys in high school, and i thought they were all more attractive than me. When i hit college, i think i felt... not more confident about how i looked, but maybe more neutral, but with a lot of low self-esteem mixed in. I didn't think i was *ugly* anymore, but i still didn't feel attractive. no way that i would be lusted after.

so it feeIs odd for me to look in the mirror and say, "i'm not a bad looking guy."

which i still don't feel 95 percent of the time, but five percent is better than zero. and five percent is probably better than 95 percent too.

I think that's a keeper.

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ex_scorppoe
Feb. 2nd, 2004 06:42 am (UTC)
lol... great minds think alike?

But you're right, five percent is better than zero, and hopefully soon you will be up at ten, fifteen, twenty. . .
nabikchan
Feb. 2nd, 2004 07:18 am (UTC)
I felt the same through High School. I never had those retarded HS crushes or relationships, I felt like I was better than that, that if someone wanted to be my boyfriend then they'd come ask me and I'd most likely say no :P

After playing DDR and losing weight, I noticed a lot more eyes on me, especially after I ditched my boyfriend. At that time I felt really attractive.
diskozombie
Feb. 2nd, 2004 07:23 am (UTC)
MENDEL = RAWR
eversorachel
Feb. 2nd, 2004 01:44 pm (UTC)
you're such a stud, mendel. ;)
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