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caring.

hm. i suppose we're not getting mail today.

you know, i spend a great deal of energy worrying about other people. i care about people. any people. close friends, acquaintances, students, teachers. i almost rely upon other people to be happy for me to be happy. how am i supposed to feel happy if i know that someone i care about isn't?

i refuse to be any other way. it's possible that the degree of which i spend my energy caring about other people can be too much and it makes me not care about myself enough, but the bottom line is that i don't fucking care. Even if it means that i'm not the greatest to myself, i'm not going to give up what i feel defines such an essential part of my life, even if it's too much.

sometimes when it's too much, i can be... less caring or concerned than i want to be. when i'm tired, exhausted, or even impatient.

god, when i'm impatient, that pisses me off.

i *know* i'm not supposed to be perfect. doesn't make me feel any better when i'm not.

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purple_thread
Feb. 16th, 2004 04:08 pm (UTC)
spssst, BUT YOU ARE PERFECT ;p
lifeofmendel
Feb. 16th, 2004 06:30 pm (UTC)
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damn right. and don't you forget it! ;)
purple_thread
Feb. 16th, 2004 06:50 pm (UTC)
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hehehheeh :) THATS WHAT I LIKE TO HEAR!!
lifeofmendel
Feb. 16th, 2004 06:54 pm (UTC)
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CZAR-CHASM.

silly girl. :)

*hugs*
purple_thread
Feb. 16th, 2004 07:32 pm (UTC)
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ha ha ha ...dont make me smack you ..hehe
you WONT like it teehee!
lifeofmendel
Feb. 16th, 2004 07:34 pm (UTC)
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now now. :)

*happy sigh*

i love you, peggy. *hugs* you doing okay? your mom okay? your sister okay?
purple_thread
Feb. 16th, 2004 07:36 pm (UTC)
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heh *likes those happy sighs*

i'm drugged to the hilt, the meds the dr. gave to dry up my sinus infection makes me feel like my entire head is shrinking into my nose.

mom SEEEMS okay... but ...it's hard.

Angie's a tough cookie, we both are -- we learned from the best.

Angie and I will support each other, and in turn support Mom.

We're both just scared is all.

Love you peachface.
lifeofmendel
Feb. 16th, 2004 07:42 pm (UTC)
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*hugs*

i know both of you are tough... just know that i'm here for *both* of you if you ever need me. i care about you two a great deal. don't be afraid to ever call on me, and know that i'm thinking about you always.
purple_thread
Feb. 16th, 2004 07:54 pm (UTC)
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I know hon, and the same goes for us.
Angie was sitting in my living room this weekend and she looked up at me and said " Sissy, isn't Mendel great? I love him" I was just all "AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW" heehhe :)

You're loved. TeeHee. Deal with it. :)~
lifeofmendel
Feb. 16th, 2004 07:59 pm (UTC)
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*blushes*

nuh uh!...

*shy smile*
purple_thread
Feb. 16th, 2004 08:02 pm (UTC)
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I'm going to enroll you in a self help class.

"HOW TO DEAL WITH BEING LOVED"

sub course
" How to take compliments"

ehhehe :)
lifeofmendel
Feb. 16th, 2004 08:06 pm (UTC)
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only if *you* enroll yourself, twin. ;)

beautiful. talented. should pursue her art. wonderful voice. etc. etc.

*giggles*
purple_thread
Feb. 16th, 2004 08:09 pm (UTC)
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*recently went blind so she can't read the nice things you said about her* NEEEENER NEENER NEENER!
lifeofmendel
Feb. 16th, 2004 08:10 pm (UTC)
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ah yes.... this one reminds me to add "cute" to the mix too. :)

weclome back to LJ sweetie. ;)
purple_thread
Feb. 16th, 2004 08:13 pm (UTC)
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*COVERS EARS* You said the 'C' word!!!!!!!

hehe, :) I'm back. kinda. being selective. heh.

*points* FLOP EARED BUNNNNNNNNIE! SO CUTE!!!
lifeofmendel
Feb. 16th, 2004 08:20 pm (UTC)
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hehe. *you* just said the C word too. :)

flop-earred bunny is Laura's bunny DeeDee. has a mate named Dexter. i've menshed them before.

*sing-songs* peggy's a cutie, peggy's a cutie, peggy's a cutie! :)
purple_thread
Feb. 16th, 2004 08:21 pm (UTC)
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*DEE DEE LIKE SCREAM* OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THOSE BUNNIES!! THEY'RE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!!!


i'm not cute. but the bunnies are.

now you hush!!!
lifeofmendel
Feb. 16th, 2004 08:26 pm (UTC)
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:)

*whistles innocently*


c
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purple_thread
Feb. 17th, 2004 08:27 am (UTC)
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gonna smack you so hard if you use that werd again ..hehehe
lifeofmendel
Feb. 17th, 2004 09:36 am (UTC)
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nooooooo comment. ;)
purple_thread
Feb. 17th, 2004 09:40 am (UTC)
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*points at the flop earred bunnie* ..*ahem* *whistles*
ex_scorppoe
Feb. 16th, 2004 04:27 pm (UTC)
I relate so well to this. Thank you.

(I care about you) *hugs*
lifeofmendel
Feb. 16th, 2004 06:32 pm (UTC)
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aww. :)

thank *you*.
eldoles
Feb. 16th, 2004 07:04 pm (UTC)
The good thing is that to your friends you're perfect enough! We love you just the way you are!
lifeofmendel
Feb. 16th, 2004 07:06 pm (UTC)
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beh. all of you guys are biased. :p
purple_thread
Feb. 16th, 2004 07:55 pm (UTC)
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nah, we all just have very good taste :)

MENDEL! *points* FLOP EARED BUNNIE!!!! *dances*
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lifeofmendel
Feb. 17th, 2004 01:20 pm (UTC)
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hehe

i *suppose* that'd be all right. :)

*hugs and hugs and hugs!*
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