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interview questions from the otter.

I was woken up by a wonderful phone call, but the down side is that i can't fall back asleep at the moment, so i'm doing various updates to my Mac and while it's going on, i thought i'd at least start on the questions otter gave me.

a quick rule reminder:

1. Leave a comment saying you want to be interviewed.

2. I'll reply and give you five questions to answer.

3. You'll update your LJ with the five questions answered.

4. You'll include this explanation.

5. You ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed. And it just keeps going, and going, and going (hopefully!).

  • 1) When is the last time you fulfilled a goal or dream?
  • 2) What colors would you say define your life and the people in it?
  • 3) Do you ever try to envision what might be, in order to make a decision?
  • 4) Do you often have dreams? If so, what do you most often dream about?
  • 5) What do you wish people would ask you?

1) When is the last time you fulfilled a goal or dream?

I'd have to say that right now i'm fulfilling a dream when it comes to Willamette's Winter Percussion Program. All of my prior experience with Winter Perc Lines has been through already-established programs, ones where i just went in to teach or tech. Willamette's Winter Perc Line is something that mark and I started on our own, from absolute scratch. I've thrown in so much time, effort, and money into making a respectable winter program, and after three years, i can start to see the pay off. Right when i'm considering leaving. :p

2) What colors would you say define your life and the people in it?

I don't really associate colors with life any more. my answer might have been different six-ten years ago when i wore black every day, or those times in college when i wore a different color shoe on each foot. But even then, those kinds of things were symbolic, but not necessarily... life-defining exactly. They might have reflected my mood and maybe a bit of my attitude or outlook. Maybe i'm just getting caught up in semantics.

3) Do you ever try to envision what might be, in order to make a decision?

Occasionally, but i try not to. I was never good at the "what if?" game because i don't like to make assumptions about my future. I don't want to limit what my future can be about by locking myself into a perspective - sometimes that can feel constrained or inflexible. It's true that i could see myself teaching at a university, but i could also see myself teaching high school. i could see myself being part of a video game development team. I could see myself doing a number of things, and i want to keep myself open to doing all of them or some of them or none of fhem if something else comes along.

I know that this runs into potential problems, especially when it comes to practical stability. That's something i might have to deal with in the near future, but i'm not *too* worried about it because i see myself as fairly adaptable.

4) Do you often have dreams? If so, what do you most often dream about?

I don't know if i dream often or not, but it's rare if i *ever* remember them. Occasionally i'll remember them when i first wake up, and then after a few hours when i've woken up properly i completely forget.

I've been bad about documenting my dreams when they happen recently - there was a period of my LJ when it was important to me to type out my dreams as soon as i woke up so that i had record of it lest it be forgotten forever. I've made those entries into memories. i should do better at that - the last dream entry i wrote was almost a year ago.

5) What do you wish people would ask you?

Sometimes i wish people would ask me "How are you doing?" in a way that makes me believe that they really want to know. It's not their fault, it's mine for being overparanoid and overprotective of my own vulnerability. it's a typical-Mendel thing to... trust people with my life in a level deeper than most people trust, yet to *not* trust people with the Really Deep Levels in a way i think most people can.

I'm not explaining this very well. But people who know me have heard me talk about this before, about how... people who first get to know me think i'm uBer cool which makes them want to know more, and they discover even more cool things in addition to the fact that i'm this sweet and nice person and etc. etc. etc., so they build up this Wonderful Great Mendel image in their head that shatters when they discover that i'm flawed. It's one of the reasons Rebec' broke up with me Way Back When.

time and time again it seemed to always happen, but i'm discovering that my perspective on this is gradually shifting. I don't really have the time to get into this right now, but i think back then i was hyper-sensitive to this kind of thing at a point when i just shouldn't have cared, or at least not cared as much as i did.

not exactly, but that'll have to do for now.

long day ahead of me. whoo.

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mmmbopthis
Mar. 7th, 2004 08:21 am (UTC)
Just like every other day, you will get through this one. And the next one. Don't worry about it, just enjoy it. Today is a beautiful day, or at least it is when I look out a certain way through my window. The other half is all cloudy. Just remember: always look on the bright side of life.

amelia
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