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ironic parallels

i have this tendency to fuck things up when it comes to people.

typically in the context of close friendships, romances/loves, and the occasional acquaintance or colleague.

after doing it for so long, you'd think i'd be used to the pain and the guilt of hurting people, or at least i'd come to terms with it, realize that it's not al my fault. But i'm not sure if that mentality is a better one, even if it's more honest and true.

sure, it means that less people get close to me and i might end up more hurt.

*shrug*

cycles. i think i wrote about this some months ago. i'm too tired to articulate it now.

again.... sorry.

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rhinoracer
Mar. 16th, 2004 01:52 am (UTC)
Don't beat yourself up over it.
Guilt and blame are the grasping at straws that our heads do when things don't go the way we want them to. I heard a surgeon tell a dying patient once: "You're not supposed to fight life, you are supposed to accept it." I think that's true here. Rachel is a wise and good person. Fears and doubts wreck many of the best of us. Grief will come, grief will go, life and love will remain unchanged.
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