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showers used to relax me.

there was a period of time in my life of a few years when i would get in the shower and use it to meditate. I would feel the hot water on my back and concentrate on my breathing, relaxing my shoulders, and then i would apply the body wash and shampoo to my body and feel like i was cleansing not just my skin of dirt, but my mind of stress.

i don't know when that stopped, but lately showers have been a place where i have too much time to think about things that i don't really want to think about.

though come to think of it, that's not *that* different from how i treated it before, it's just a different slant. and those thoughts... maybe i need to think about them to gain clarity, and the shower can sometimes seem like the equivalent of a save sphere - it's a place to recouperate, gather your thoughts, free of outside distractions.

anyway, when i was in the shower today, the idea of taking some sort of break from contact with kim rolled around in my head, and i think i might give it a try. it's definitely effort to have her in my life in any regard right now, and i think i still need time to heal.

i'm supposed to go over to kurt and laura's in about 25 minutes, and i'm fekking tired as all hell. i think i might try a five minute nap and then drive over. those usually do me a lot of good.

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ritalin_rikku
Jul. 4th, 2004 11:44 pm (UTC)
Huzzah for showers~
fyretygr3497
Jul. 4th, 2004 11:45 pm (UTC)
personally, i've always found baths to be more relaxing than showers, if only because a bath, by definition, allows you more time to luxuriate in the hot water. also, i find it's easier to escape from things when you can lay back in the water until it blocks your ears, close your eyes, and be alone in your mind, if that makes any sense. on the down side, you do have to deal with water going tepid in a bath; however, at least where i live, if i want to take a shower of equal length, i have to worry about the hot water running out, so i suppose it comes down to which you're more willing to deal with.
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